A Horrifying Sentence

My struggle to understand the concept of manifesting has persisted for most of my life. That would be a horrifying sentence to people who understand manifesting. I'm getting ahead of myself; let me explain.

The first time I heard about manifesting was in church. I remember hearing about one young girl who prayed every day to have straight teeth. At the end of the year, God answered her prayers, and her smile lit up the TV screen. I don't know if this story is true, but it planted the idea in my mind that to manifest, I only needed to believe with all my heart that what I wanted would happen and vigilantly pray to God daily. For a while, I did that, but I manifested nothing.

Like many of you, the next experience I had with manifestation was the documentary film The Secret, based on the book written by Rhonda Byrne. The experts in this film agreed that the Law of Attraction works by using our thoughts to focus on what we want and eventually, thoughts become material things. But the secret remained a secret to me. Impatient and frustrated, I'd give up.

Over the course of my life, I dedicated a lot of time to creating a life I loved. It began with a kind of backward trip. I had a feeling that I needed to feel passionate about my work. What kind of work would light up my soul? What was preventing me from finding my soul's purpose? Why didn't I feel or hear its wisdom? See what I mean? I couldn't even find where to start, but I thought I should start reconnecting with my soul, and then maybe it would let me know what to do next.

My Kindle library grew quickly as I scoured the internet for experts. I took classes in Reiki, Theta Healing, and Shamanism, all to find the path that led to my life's spiritual purpose.

My purpose revealed itself. The obstacles, life boot camps, trauma, and illnesses were there to school me to be more precise about what I really wanted. I really wanted to have a working relationship with my soul, learn to love myself, and find my passion in life, and I achieved all of that. I learned about the state of compassion and felt gratitude for everything I had experienced. This magnificent mystical voyage is the subject of my first book.

Next on my list of manifesting wants was to take care of my body and learn from it. Perhaps I should have specified that I wanted to keep my body healthy and be able to hear its messages before sickness and disease entered my body. I had to admit I allowed the autoimmune disease, broken wrist, and medication-induced diabetes coursing through my body today. Still, I am grateful for what they're teaching me, and I've started my second book about my body's vital role in healing and life.

Recently, an email alerted me to a free class on abundance and manifesting with a fiery teacher-so much gratitude goes to Adele Tevlin. According to her, there are three steps to manifestation: thinking about what I want, feeling like I already have what I want, and taking inspired action. Not only that, my only job is to make sure I stay in alignment as much as I can. How do I do that?

When I'm triggered, I slip out of alignment. According to this expert, one approach to getting back into alignment is to ask my inner child what she's experiencing and listen to her. She doesn't need fixing; she needs to know who she really is. Who is she? She is a human with a birthright. That birthright means I get to feel good and play in the flow of life because I am an expression of source consciousness just by being me, a flawed human.

Heady stuff, right? I can see how, when I'm triggered, I slip into victim consciousness. Our ability to reclaim our power involves identifying the causes of our triggers and then directing our body's consciousness to help break the negative patterns or conditioning we learned as young children. There are many ways to do this. I turned to ThetaHealing to transform destructive beliefs into empowering beliefs. This teacher recommends engaging our inner child to reclaim power.

I remember those dark, brooding clouds around my head as I struggled to understand manifesting. It brought me more struggle and persistence, and put me back in victim mode in an endless loop. Have I got it all figured out? No, not at all; however, I now know what to do to break that loop. Now do you think writing that “my struggle to understand the concept of manifesting has persisted for most of my life” would raise or lower my consciousness, help or impede my desires, align or not align with my desires to create a life I love?

Someone who is seriously engaged in raising their consciousness would see that sentence as both horrifying and a sentence for more struggle, persistence, and grinding my way through life working hard. It doesn't have to be a life sentence. The important takeaway is to do the work of reclaiming your power to shift a “why is this happening to me” victim mindset to “if I created that struggle, that hardship, I can also create what I need and want with more ease.” Absolutely you can!