Raising Our Vibration

Caught in the middle of sickening what-ifs, I dove into a dark rabbit hole of doom. Why did this happen, and why now? If we’re human, we are familiar with experiences that don’t seem fair to us, actions by others that shatter our peace and threaten our safety, or a series of random incidents that pierce our hearts and alter our experience with life.

The letter on our front door was folded in three and marked “IMPORTANT.” My heart raced and beads of sweat formed on my forehead. A letter like that is not usually bearing good news. It wasn’t good news. My body registered its reaction as the hair on the back of my neck bristled with instant rage. How could they threaten us like that?

The actual events are irrelevant. What’s relevant is how quickly I descended into doom and despair and the Herculean efforts it took to crawl back to a semblance of positivity.

My first book deals with how I became a more conscious being and how I reconnected with my soul by digging deep into my past to uncover destructive life patterns. I re-wrote the stories that formed those patterns, turning them into empowering beliefs. Nothing was spared scrutiny, yet here I was, back in a pit of heavy gloom. It wasn't fair. This pattern was familiar, and it taunted me with its message that, despite healing, the I-am-a-victim pattern still exists. Did I not deal with it by changing that belief to I stand up for myself?

Serious health issues and their symptoms have made my life complicated. Facing the challenge of significant fatigue and changing my food choices to help my body get back to optimal health required concentrated thought and commitment. Medication side effects included exploding diarrhea, reduced capacity to use my brain, memory lapses, and hair loss. Thankfully, my broken wrist was on the mend. The letter demanded action that I knew would be exhausting.

It felt like my sense of safety and that of my family was assaulted. The resulting massive stress caused questions: Is this just normal human existence? Does our time on Earth comprise of both ups and downs, positivity and negativity, horrible events, and those that bring our hearts back to love and light? Is the purpose of existence simply about choosing between good and evil? What about resilience? Where does our human will intersect our trials?

We dealt with the threatening incidents, and the outcome was positive, but I could sense a question loitering just outside my consciousness that wouldn’t form into words. It was about my rapid loss of love and light, and energetic vibration. I dislike the words high and low vibration. It seems they are used to judge people and their lives. Being human is sometimes messy and chaotic, just as it is sometimes synchronistic and flowing.

Everyone experiences difficulties in life. Resilience requires us to reset our lifeboats or find a new boat to sail. Overcoming anything is hard, and sometimes our will takes a beating. Conflict often isolates us, making struggles harder to deal with than if a group of supportive people surrounded us. I believe that what we face daily impacts how we process and deal with unexpected negative experiences and our ability to bounce back. The more cow pies in the pasture, the more we'll step in them. I know, what do cow pies have to do with lifeboats and rabbit holes?

So it was that the Pollyanna in me fell silent as I sat in my rabbit hole of doom. It hit me like the stench from a fresh cow pie I'd just stepped in. Who went down that doomsday rabbit hole? Whose attitude was it to judge our situation? How did I make such a giant leap from coping with life to disaster? I did. The human in me did. The discouraged, tired, stretched bybeyond what I could bear all at once did.

There are so many ways to be brave in this world. . . . Sometimes it is nothing more than gritting your teeth through pain, and the work of every day, the slow walk toward a better life. That is the sort of bravery I must have now. Veronica Roth, Allegiant

 In the end, we looked at the facts, weighed our options, and chose to work through it, and work we did! The choice was to stay in fear and rage, or acknowledge our feelings and begin the slow march toward a solution–a solution that involved caring for each other and dealing with tough work by tackling it in small, consistent doses together.

It took a whole week for our family to recover enough to evaluate what happened. Each of us let our focus on our own issues consume us to the point where we neglected other areas of our lives, leading to the letter on the door.

Was it fair? No, it wasn’t, but I’m in charge of my reaction. I celebrated that my family and I made it through a very stressful time. We worked together, encouraged each other to keep going, and listened with compassion when the load got too heavy. Through the frustration, anger, despair, and deep resentment for perceived unfairness, our family pulled together, and a crisis was averted.

Finally, I heard the question hanging out in my unconscious mind: How could my energetic vibration level tank so quickly and where did it go?

Power does not come from finding only high-vibration people and environments to exist in. It comes from developing the ability to hold a high vibration under pressure. Jennifer@radiantfrequency  

It turns out that the work I’ve been doing intensively for the last four to five years relates to the ability to hold a high vibration under pressure. I used ThetaHealing, EFT (Tapping), and Reiki to begin the inner work to:

Pay attention to unresolved stress and acknowledge unfortunate childhood incidents that keep bubbling up in our consciousness.

Look at areas in life that aren’t working in the workplace, family, relationships, money, health, home, purpose/mission, body image, etc.

Clear false beliefs and replace them with empowering beliefs.

However, after all that work, I still couldn’t maintain my energetic vibration. I had to conclude that my reaction was normal for the circumstances we faced, but when I let it stew in my mind to the point I was sharing my doomsday stories with friends and random baristas, my energy wandered into chronic low-vibration territory. However, stuffing those feelings into the dusty and unused recesses of our minds and bodies just ensures they will revisit our consciousness over and over, causing havoc until they’re dealt with. In a way, dealing our stories or our cobwebbed issues and feelings is the process by which we raise our vibration.

What say you, readers? To me, claiming we have a high vibration has a competitive I’m-better-than-you vibe to it that feels like it’s a long way from love and light. When life seems harsh or unfair, it hurts. Is pain a low vibration? I don't think so. Pain is pain. Our response, though, can make the difference between a chronic low-vibration state and the way back to love and light, and yes, a ray of dazzling light can raise our vibration.